What a difference time can make! I feel like a completely different person since moving and starting a new job. I feel like I used to have anxiety whenever a birthday would come up- what did I do the past year? What am I going to accomplish in the next year? That feeling is gone this year.
This year I turned 30 at a work conference in DC surrounded by coworkers. I don't have the feelings of inadequacy, ticking time clock, or any kind of anxiety this time around.
Mainly, I feel excited. I feel like I'm finally getting the hang of this and hitting my sweet spot. I know wonderful things are on the way. I feel like I just know innately that everything it going to be great. Yes, I still have stress, but I no longer let it consume me or let some abstract milestone dictate my level of joy. I always thought this birthday was going to be a big deal...but it really wasn't. It's really just a day among many; what we fill it with is what matters.
I filled this one with work travel and a nice dinner with my coworkers. I'm thankful for everything. :)
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